. . . "ut i can not see Him or touch Him no matter how much i want to. i can not be the only one who thinks like this ??? one who has a conflict eating at her heart as blood d r i p s from her wrists as some sort of an attempt to say I am sorry for everything she has(n't) done wrong. i want to set my life straight but that would be like telling me to simply forget all the memories of her and she has done to" .