It shouldnt matter if it was my first baby or my 20th baby -- having a baby is a miracle, a blessing and a happy time in your life --- people really can f*ck off - thats what i have to say about that.Anyways - i also lie about my dad too -- I love my dad, and i miss him badly - i want to reunite with him; but im afraid of hurting my mom who went through some hell with my dad - not physical or sexu