Despite my struggles and some very bleak days I see that I am so much stronger emotionally, now, than I was when I first came to BR. I see, too, that when I am weak and tempted to reach for something/someone unhealthy to help me run from my sadness is the best time to try to settle down with myself, be in my solitude, and get back in touch with why I like me and why I will always be my own first,