ing weak about it, and be strong for myself, because the backlashes hurt me, and i can not let that get to me right now. i have to think of the baby. i can not be stressing myself out and putting the baby at risk. and i know i have been asking myself if this baby is a mistake, if it is what he really wants at all, but i have to stop that, because that is tearing me up inside, and making me think crazy.